Today it'll be another day without you,
it won't be more painful than yesterday,
nor less than tomorrow.
It'll be just another day full of pain,
a special day, because you made it special.
It was a joy to give me presents, make me feel your love,
choosing the best gifts for me
with so much roguery and mystery,
you hided in your bedroom.

Then it was and endless night
because you wanted to see my surprise face,
you really enjoyed more than anybody else,
but for me, the things you wrote in the cards
are the ones that I miss most,
and all the kisses, all the hugs you gave me
since the first time you called me "Mom".
And I miss you, I miss you so much,
and these days I felt that I'm getting crazy,
that I'm loosing my mind.

 
I still don't understand why I lost you,
why I don't have you,
I'm feeling my soul empty.
Is not fair what they did to you,
Is not fair so much pain,
just give me the gift of your presence,
wake me up from this nightmare,
fill your bedroom with your presence.
I need you, I can't go on like this,
it's stronger than I.
I'm trying to live with the memories,
but is hurting me.
When I wake up in the morning, my first thought is for you
and I fall to sleep between tears calling your name.

I can't live like this,
I feel that I've been mutilated,
everything lost sense.
Even in the most difficult moments,
I've never felt like this,
because you were always there for me,
giving me your support, your company,
always felt that we were one,
without that half, I won't be able to survive.
You are my complement, my everything, my proud.
You are the daughter of my heart, of my soul, of my blood,
my oxygen, my life.

You were my reason to live,
without you, I have a nothing.
I love you my little one, and I'll be here
waiting to have you in my arms once again,
it'll be the best gift for your mother.
 

In loving memory of my beloved daughter

Jaysell Yvonne Perez

July/24-1990-march/27/2005

"Since your eyes closed, mine can't stop crying"

Mayo-13-2007
 

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